Unquestionable

Am I alone and friendless because I don't put myself out there, or is it because I haven't found the right people yet?

A semi-friend of mine made mention that it's not enough to offer your unquestionable loyalty to someone, you must also accept their help/loyalty.

I never saw that character flaw (my having a hard time asking for help) as a piece to a bigger problem (my not having close relationships).

I'm down on myself now. When you have a sad self-realization, one you'd rather not have noticed, and you understand the cons but you'd rather keep it going... That's a bummer.

I know I want to let people in more, but I can't do that just yet. It's too hard. I don't want to show weakness. I don't want to admit to needing help/people.