So I've had a bad couple of days.
REALLY bad, couple of days.
I need to re-list the good things in my life.
I've lost my way. So, hopefully this will help.
-Achievements-
1. finished a knit hat (with color changing and trellis cables)
2. saw a Vegas show
3. started Perl programming
4. started work today
5. cleaned the kitten's mess (80%)
6. read through 50% of linguistic book
7. rearranged a few chairs in my house
8. saw Mamma Mia
9. got the door-dusters together
10. started the upholstery project
-Left to Achieve-
1. clean room another 20%
2. finish upholstery 50%
3. 5 successful Perl programs
4. finish door-duster for bathroom door
5. knit purple hat
6. read the rest of the ling book
7. place the last chair in my room (dependent on #1)
8. crochet 5 hats
9. read hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
10. put up curtains to keep out the cold.
I'm going to leave my lists at 10 items each. I like to mention small achievements, whether I've completed a project 100% or not, I've accomplished something. Also, I figure... if an item is on the lists more than 3 times, well, that means I don't want to complete it.
Hopefully my next list will show that I've achieved all 10 items and I'll have new items to list as "Left to Achieve".
Relapse
Whew! What a break I took!
Actually, I just completely forgot I had this blog. I've got a few hidden around the nets, so I forget about them once in a while. This one was a good one, just reading back on the few posts of my main page reminded me of my wonderful life. I should be more appreciative.
To catch you up a bit, I am doing the NaNoWriMo challenge. I'm excited. I'm also already behind. But I plan on going to the Regional Write-in this Saturday and hope my writing skills will be on point that day, so I might catch up on any missing word count totals.
Just in the past hour alone I've written 1,000 words. I've also come up with a sketched out idea and a main plot point. (feel good heartstrings being pulled and all). I've created my main character's attributes and named her. I've also created a bad boy and the main guy, although I don't have names or full attributes for them yet. I didn't want to lead my story with an over-encompassing idea, so I left out what sort of main sci-fi points I should hit. One thing I knew I wanted was a new language. Awesome! And I also wanted it to be a culture clash sci-fi. But beyond those ideas, I've got nothing.
Best to leave it at that.
Cool to find out that Kamihamasen in Japanese means "Nevermind", which when looked up in the jisho.org dictionary- I found the Godan verb "kamu"meaning 'to blow one's nose' and also "kamuru" meaning 'to bear someone's faults' which pretty much sums up my feelings when I say "nevermind" to someone.
Actually, I just completely forgot I had this blog. I've got a few hidden around the nets, so I forget about them once in a while. This one was a good one, just reading back on the few posts of my main page reminded me of my wonderful life. I should be more appreciative.
To catch you up a bit, I am doing the NaNoWriMo challenge. I'm excited. I'm also already behind. But I plan on going to the Regional Write-in this Saturday and hope my writing skills will be on point that day, so I might catch up on any missing word count totals.
Just in the past hour alone I've written 1,000 words. I've also come up with a sketched out idea and a main plot point. (feel good heartstrings being pulled and all). I've created my main character's attributes and named her. I've also created a bad boy and the main guy, although I don't have names or full attributes for them yet. I didn't want to lead my story with an over-encompassing idea, so I left out what sort of main sci-fi points I should hit. One thing I knew I wanted was a new language. Awesome! And I also wanted it to be a culture clash sci-fi. But beyond those ideas, I've got nothing.
Best to leave it at that.
Cool to find out that Kamihamasen in Japanese means "Nevermind", which when looked up in the jisho.org dictionary- I found the Godan verb "kamu"meaning 'to blow one's nose' and also "kamuru" meaning 'to bear someone's faults' which pretty much sums up my feelings when I say "nevermind" to someone.
Sense
I've started reading a book a week. If I don't finish the book then oh well, but the point is to get to reading more. And so, I read. And to begin with I'm reading sense and sensibility by Jane Austen. One book I haven't read before, and one book I am particularly loathe to read. The plot, the characters, the dialogue, it's all very hard to read. And very hard to like. Ah well, you can't always have perfection.
You've got the mojo for that
After a crazy week at work and even crazier after work schedule I had one of the best dates I've ever had. A surprise location was the only agenda item I really got, with a hint of "footwork" involved in the planning. So I knew I would need to dress nicely and yet comfortable. I got a beautiful, balanced, aromatic bouquet of flowers on monday which was a sweet and thoughtful start to my week. I'm not sure anyone has ever spent this much time thinking about me, or at least spent that much time doing it, and then acting on it in a smart and thoughtful way. I'm continually amazed at the level of maturity this Libra has to offer and how maturity does not mean serious or strict. I've finally found someone who is spontaneous and optimistic like myself! Someone who likes having people around but doesn't need the attention, only needs the presence or idea.
His thoughts are well formed and he isn't afraid to geek out on a topic that inspires him. He doesn't wait to have fun with his knowledge. He enjoys life in the now. He is direct and thoughtful. Even in the smallest kiss or the slightest touch.
I might feel a bit inadequate when I think of all his high marks, but only because he exudes where I want to be, but as it is, I am still an impulsive, must have now and think of the future, excitement junkie. I say things without putting much formed thought behind the words and I feel things that I don't quite understand. The only thing I have going for me is that I know what I want (to a degree) and I know how to get what I want.
I am interested in seeing where this dual air sign relationship can take me. I've never done it before, and I'm intrigued by the class of the individual and the caliber of the interactions. Really what I mean to say is that he blows my mind. I never thought a guy could be like him. He is far from what I think is perfect, but who wants mr. Perfect? I have mr. Damn Close to Perfect and I'm already feeling inadequate and worrisome. I need to get my feelings about myself in check before let them rule me.
So the surprise date was a funny play where we could cuddle up on stage (me in my dress, and him in his trendy shirt and tie), and a picnic for two in the park after dark. The weather was perfect and the planning was crazy good. He illicited the help of my friends (who gave nothing away, not even that they knew we were going on a date together!) and we had wine and sushi and fruit all outside overlooking the city buildings (highest point in the city I suppose). It was crazy thoughtful and extremely romantic. He really cares and enjoys doting (as well as being doted on). He's smart enough to know where to go for help (friends) and he's not afraid to ask them and let them know what he's up to. No games, no secrets, but loads of frills and fanciness. Thoughtfulness. Care. Class. Courage. Playfulness. Delight.
He has an awesome personality and a gorgeous mind. He cares enough to dress himself well and has enough class to know when to dress up. He has the courage to make things happen and the delightful acceptance of the way things turn out.
What a guy.
His thoughts are well formed and he isn't afraid to geek out on a topic that inspires him. He doesn't wait to have fun with his knowledge. He enjoys life in the now. He is direct and thoughtful. Even in the smallest kiss or the slightest touch.
I might feel a bit inadequate when I think of all his high marks, but only because he exudes where I want to be, but as it is, I am still an impulsive, must have now and think of the future, excitement junkie. I say things without putting much formed thought behind the words and I feel things that I don't quite understand. The only thing I have going for me is that I know what I want (to a degree) and I know how to get what I want.
I am interested in seeing where this dual air sign relationship can take me. I've never done it before, and I'm intrigued by the class of the individual and the caliber of the interactions. Really what I mean to say is that he blows my mind. I never thought a guy could be like him. He is far from what I think is perfect, but who wants mr. Perfect? I have mr. Damn Close to Perfect and I'm already feeling inadequate and worrisome. I need to get my feelings about myself in check before let them rule me.
So the surprise date was a funny play where we could cuddle up on stage (me in my dress, and him in his trendy shirt and tie), and a picnic for two in the park after dark. The weather was perfect and the planning was crazy good. He illicited the help of my friends (who gave nothing away, not even that they knew we were going on a date together!) and we had wine and sushi and fruit all outside overlooking the city buildings (highest point in the city I suppose). It was crazy thoughtful and extremely romantic. He really cares and enjoys doting (as well as being doted on). He's smart enough to know where to go for help (friends) and he's not afraid to ask them and let them know what he's up to. No games, no secrets, but loads of frills and fanciness. Thoughtfulness. Care. Class. Courage. Playfulness. Delight.
He has an awesome personality and a gorgeous mind. He cares enough to dress himself well and has enough class to know when to dress up. He has the courage to make things happen and the delightful acceptance of the way things turn out.
What a guy.
Happiness
I just saw the happiest people in the world. A couple, obviously farm folk, the lady was wearing short overalls with a wife beater underneath and the man had a sleeveless shirt and jean cutoffs, with a belly like a baby. They were walking hand-in-hand on the boardwalk. Grinning about their new found interest in beach culture. I like to think it was their first time anywhere outside their farm town. The man told his wife, I'm going to treat you this week. Come along Braidley, bring your best bibs and prepare to be amazed.
It was only a moment in time.
Over
It's Over.
Too Overwhelming.
Way Overdue.
Time for an Overhaul.
I can't stay friends with people I don't respect or care to share my life with. If I can't trust them, then what kind of friends are they? I'm done with boys that are close in my life, but aren't committed. I can't keep that kind of casual relationship going if I find out you'd prefer my friend, if only she weren't madly in love with someone else.
I do have an amazing intuition, and somewhere along the way I forgot to listen to it. Great. Big mistake. Waste of time. Get back to basics please. Stop getting crushed by the opposition ok?
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